Vomitification

Wednesday, September 10, 2008

Sabbatical

All eyes were on me

the bright lights were shining

camera flashes, high expectations

constant talks of succession.

the directions are confusing

the instructions never ending

the behavorial changes appaling

and my mind is left contemplating

i chose to run but not escape

i disappeared but am always present

i kept quiet but i can speak

i shut my ears but i still listened

i stopped thinking but am not dead

i closed my eyes but did not sleep

all i ever did was what i need

and all i need was a sabbatical.

Thursday, February 14, 2008

from cairo to the indian ocean
the breeze sings a romantic lullaby
a song of undying devotion
to be sung to you on the river nile.

for i sing to you this song of mine

for every dream every night brings

i wanna be your dream and you'll be mine

and we'll both play the song lovers sing

i look upon the passing clouds
i say the words my heart desires
the words so simple yet so deep
words that are light on the ears but heavy on the heart.

i ran into the indian ocean

and you ran to the river nile

separated by a canvas of water

brought together by the bonds of the heart.

under the starry night
i lay on the sandy beach
looking for your reflection in the open sky
hoping for the times we've always dreamed.

Monday, February 26, 2007

looking upon the quiet night

the moon is hiding behind the clouds

the stars are not shining bright
and i am standing here in the dark.

i looked into the lifeless water

in the cold, still night

hoping to see my soul within

but there wasnt even a reflection of light.

baby, this heart is crying

its bleeding its contents out

cause all this while i have been waiting

and i am still waiting til my time is up.

nineteen was the time we first met

twenty fifth was the time we went out

so its three months and a week since we met

and three months and a day since we went out.

and all this time i have been living
when it actual fact i was just hoping
that some day this dream will ever be
more than just a mere dream.

but i guess i was wrong

so wrong, baby.

i guess i should have listened,

listen to the ones around me.

i told everyone in the eyes

that i am sure it will happen

and i told myself to give it time

but time has been ticking too fast.

i know the time is near

your time is up

i have been waiting patiently

and now i have to let it go.

but saying is easier than done
seems like my friends are right
and i should have listened
then i'll never need to mend my heart.

Friday, October 13, 2006

war

my sky is dropping bombs on me

pounding down like a thousand and one hiroshima

hearts sent exploding by the adrenaline rush

there is no time to stop and think.

i hear the fighter planes screeching pass

and the sirens wailing loud and clear

amidst the chaotic screams and the listless souls

i could no longer hear my heart beating.

my home crumbled and shattered to pieces

and my life is burnt down by the reigning fire

the streets are littered with rubble and lifeless bodies

and i lost myself beneath this foul sea.

i walked through the empty streets

searching for a soul to be with

cause this heart is yearning for company

and what i found made me bleed.

i walked round the corner

and a soul in green greeted me

but i see a soul in blue behind him

pointing his weapon of seduction towards me.

without a clue nor a warning

i find myself caught in between

a deadly battle of unruly cause

i lay lifeless beneath the sky of fire.

while allegiances may dissolve and fade away into forgotten memory, great passion conquers all.

down by the majestic river

under the moonlit and star studded sky

we sat and looked into each others' eyes

as you held me close in your arms

you whispered candy coated words

and showered me with intensely burning passion.

we shared our tiny secrets

and we talked of our colorful pasts

we speak of our beloved hometown

we giggled over our embarrassing moments

and we predicted on our future

just both you and I.

there is something surreal

in this exchanging of words

there is something magical

in this dance of emotions

there is something seductive

behind those hazel eyes.

i wanted to fly to the moon

and have you there beside me

just the both of us looking down on the world

together enjoying the serenity of solace

all i ever wanted was you up there with me

so that we can spend our life together

for now and for eternity.

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

i went deeper than i ever wanted
i never knew it affected you.
baby, i am sorry for leading you on
but i aint gonna hide the truth from you.

you see, i ran a thousand miles

and played too many lies

to get away from all these lives

to get through all these times.

i never meant to hurt you

i never wish to break you

i never wanted it to happen

i never did lead you through.

you see, i gave up on cupid a long time ago

cause he messed up too many times

and so i ran to california

swore never to come back ever.

i never had feelings for you
i hope you'll understand
i think its time i tell you
love, time to let go of my hand.

its flattering to be admired

its an honour to be liked

its a pleasure to be your friend

but this is where it all ends.

i hope you'll understand

that we will just be nothing more than friends.

Thursday, March 23, 2006

run

run from wall to wall
run across the floor
run beneath the war
run to the door

but the door isnt there

the windows shut tight

the walls painted white

the lights blinding bright

i feel so suffocated

my breaths are cut short

this angst ever amounting

i down a mind of shot

i seek alienation

i find troubles of life

i smiled in jubilation

only to fall into downward plight

run from wall to wall

run across the floor

run beneath the war

run into the door

but the door was never there

Sunday, April 10, 2005

Trapped within these walls
My screams remain unheard
Suffocated by my responsibilities
My soul hangs on lifelessly.

Time crawls to a stand still
My heart stops pumping
My brain stops thinking
My body stops moving
But my lungs breathe unwillingly.

The stale air that I breathe
Makes my soul weep furiously
Of the end that never comes
And the beginning that never leaves.